I'm working on my play & just wrote a really sexy scene... Here's a tiny excerpt...
FAIRY: Do you love her?
PRINCE:(unhesitating yet doubtful) More than anything, anyone, ever.
FAIRY: Then why allow me to do this?
She kisses him. They make out, growing more and more passionate. Mom exits as the lighting returns to normal and the prince and fairy become Chase and Paloma again. They are still kissing, lying on top of the desk.
CHASE:(pulling away) Mmm. No. Bad. Wrong. Stop.
PALOMA:(getting in close again) Mmm. Good. Right. Yes. Stay.
CHASE:(retreating to the other side of the room) I have a girlfriend. Her name is Marla. We’ve only been dating a month but I really think there’s potential there.
PALOMA: No relationship has “potential.” They’re all doomed.
CHASE: I just met you and you think you know me?
PALOMA:(salacious) Oh, I know you intimately.
This is one of the first ukulele songs I ever wrote. The video was edited by my unbelievable friend Jonny. The interesting thing about this song is: despite the tone of “you are totally never going to like me ever ever ever,” the boy it’s about ended up asking me out ~5 months after I wrote this song.
She asked me to give her a schedule of diet and exercise. Here it is:
Look in the mirror and list everything you love about your body.
Dont eat or drink anything with sugar in it.
Do something you love and that makes you laugh.
Make someone else laugh.
Throw away all fashion/women’s magazines.
Get active doing something you enjoy, dancing, surfing, running, building, fixing, yoga, tidying, whatever makes you happy and smiley.
Shop for clothes that look good on you, dont look at the size, just find what fits well.
Throw away your scale.
Stop eating red meat.
Drink 2ltrs of water.
Make a list of everything youre grateful for.
Find ways to make other people happy.
Commit random acts of kindness.
Never say anything to yourself that you wouldnt say to a friend or loved one.
Accept yourself and know that you are and will always be, good enough.
I have come to the spiritual understanding of my life as an ever-unfolding experience that is governed by MY thoughts & MY actions. It is not something that “happens to me” - in fact I am actually creating it in every moment. I think a thought & am soon issued a manifestation that matches my dominant thoughts & feelings.
So the question becomes: what excuse is there for my dominant thoughts & feelings ever being ANYTHING but good?!
By this logic, it only makes sense to focus on the positive, to celebrate & commemorate & highlight & amplify all the goodness I witness & can imagine - & conversely, to remove all my attention from the negative; to minimize, ignore, & disapparate it from view.
In practical terms, this means:
-making (& FEELING) regular gratitude lists, vlogs, what-have-you
-actively seeking out the best parts of any person, place, thing, situation, etc.
-being forgiving & loving, a beacon of happiness & comfort in others’ lives
-ignoring criticism, without incident
-providing positive reinforcement to reward positivity (& ignoring negativity entirely)
-making a perpetual good mood my #1 priority
“Becoming a successful manifestor – whether you want to manifest love, money, a new career, or simply a parking space – requires a certain level of emotional maturity. Great manifestors have learned the art of managing their thoughts and emotions so that even when doubt, fear or other limiting feelings pop up, they are not swept into a spiral of negativity. Developing this kind of mental discipline requires us to make a deliberate choice to focus our attention on what we desire rather than on what we don’t want.”—Arielle Ford
99% of the time, when someone says or does something that makes me uncomfortable, or makes me experience any kind of negative emotion, it’s because I feel that they are emitting more negativity than positivity.
The more that I grow up & refine my personality & my spirituality, the more I realize that there is absolutely no room in my life for negativity of any kind.
This means that now I sometimes experience discomfort when I’m around people who criticize, worry, accuse, etc. These people probably aren’t any more negative than the average person, but I’m so attuned to the vibration of positivity now that even the slightest diversion feels a bit weird to me.
The solution is threefold:
1. Indoctrinate positivity into my friends & family. This is pretty easy to do; I just put out all my regular positivity & I find that it’s contagious with most people. This also involves doing a little “repair work” when necessary: the other day my dad was criticizing one of my friends for no reason whatsoever, which made me really uncomfortable, & I told him so. It felt a lot better to have him know that I don’t like that kind of talk. At least then I feel like I am doing something about the problem. I think it also makes people more aware of their own habits when I subtly steer them in a more positive direction.
2. Cut out those incredibly negative “incurables.” There are occasionally people who are so negative that they can’t even be reasoned with. Lucky for me, I don’t attract people like this anymore, but if I did, I’d try to move away from those relationships.
3. Trust that more positive relationships are on their way. I notice that the more uplifted & enlightened I get, the more like-minded relationships I attract. This is totally amazing to me. More, please!
things to do when you're single on Valentine's Day:
1. Eat a cupcake
2. Have an orgasm
3. Make a list of things you love about yourself
4. See yourself through the eyes of a future lover
5. Have a long talk with a good friend
6. Wear a tacky pink-&-red outfit
7. Wear heart-shaped jewelry
8. Take self-portraits
9. Kiss your reflection
10. Fantasize about your romantic future
I woke up 3 minutes before my alarm & then got to spend some time with my S.A.D. lamp.
I went on part of a romantic treasure hunt with my friend, which involved a Winston Churchill statue, a TTC day pass, & a dude in a scary blue mask.
I had time to get dressed cute & go through a zany pre-show ritual consisting of raspberry-flavored Pez & a really loud Jupiter One playlist.
With the help of a super-cheerful salesgirl wearing a sparkly red Valentine’s crown, I bought a ridiculously sexy new perfume at Lush.
I did SUUUUUCH a fantastic show with my improv team!! This included doing a scene with someone I had never met before, with no suggestion, both of which would ordinarily intimidate me hugely, but I think I rocked it anyway!
As a 19th birthday present to myself in two months, I’m thinking of starting a blog. Like, a real blog, not a trivial Tumblr one such as this which mostly consists of other people’s videos & photos. I think I’ve spent too long developing a web presence to be “someone who does not own their own website” for any longer!
I had Cinnamon-Skies.org for a year when I was about 13. It was mainly a way for me to practice my web design skills (all of which have severely atrophied at this point). It had a personal blog but I just wrote about my oh-so-dramatic life as a middle schooler.
Now I’m thinking I want to have a serious blog where I write about songwriting, style, spirituality, theatre, relationships, art, and basically what it’s like to be a creative young adult in Canada. Something like that.
Improv. Triple Bill shows; getting ready for our upcoming John Candy Box show; doing transcendently good scenes in a purple drama room; warming up with Big Booty in an echoey hallway; fueling up pre-show with sushi & Chinese broccoli; laughing in horror when we realize we’ve done something very politically incorrect; making soundscapes; silly accents; laughing even louder than the audience is.
Good food. Spinach salads, chicken sandwiches on whole grain, oatmeal, lots of water & tea, crunchy spicy salmon sushi, steak sauce on anything…
Report cards. The average I am submitting to universities is a 92. There’s only one school I haven’t heard back from yet, so this isn’t actually that big of a deal, but whateva!
The Shameless party! SO many fascinating, beautiful, vivacious, kind, talented, intelligent women all gathered into one room. Harp jazz & dubstep & rock ‘n’ roll. Getting laughs with Best I Ever Had. Being interviewed. Arena, my soul sista. Performing poetry!
"If you won’t be upset about it in 5 years, why be upset about it at all?"
“Weirdo is one of my new favorite terms. Really. It’s affectionate enough that it’s far from insulting, while still stating the intention of being a bit of an outlier. Thus, I will happily call myself a weirdo.”—a cute chick’s OkCupid profile
She inhales his shirt, taking in the scent of the man she loves. It lingers on her clothes, her sheets, her hair—all over. Imprinted on her body and in her mind, it radiates within her, filing her with feelings of warmth and desire.
Actress Kate Walsh wanted to capture the scent of a guy on a girl: a man’s cologne mixed with perfume, the smell that lingers on the skin. This fragrance evokes memories of that time after he has left for the day—when she gently awakes in a bed that’s still warmly redolent of “boyfriend.”
An alluring balance of vanilla, jasmine blossoms, and an accord of amber is set against the sensual scents of a man, including a light musk and a shimmer of fresh woods.
”—the rather beautiful description of “Boyfriend” eau de toilette